bad trip tlga ngayong araw na toh!!!
pucha!
sem break nga pero nagpapakabulok naman ako!
imagine lyf w/o money...
no gimmiks...
grabe!
di ba naman ako pinayagan ng mom ko
na pumunta sa bday celebration ng BESTFRIEND ko!?!
it seems lyk she wnts me to stay in d hauz
n nver get out d hul sem break!
ikaw ba naman magkaron ng mommy na ganito!?
hay...
bad trip tlga!
tpos e2 pa!
nag-away pa kmi ng BOYFRIEND ko!
pero di ko na sasabihin kung bakit
kc bka mag emotional breakdown na naman ako...
lyf really do sucks sumtyms...
hay....
malapit na ko mapraning!
God help me...

Message: mAy isNg gurl w8tiNg for her b0yfreNd....

>oN d 1st dAy....
>she seNt a msg 2 d guy...
" mis u n! wat tym k b pu2Nta."
>she's w8ting 4 d reply...
but no 0ne ans...


>2nd msg...
"i text u kninang morning
bat di k ng reply"...
wat tym k bpu2nta?!"
i need ur ans asap...

>but she w8 4 5 hours la pring sgot..
Sa sobrang asar
ini-off nya ang CP nya...
nd told herself...
"i will not open this cell unless
pu2nta xa d2...

>after a few minute nk2log n rin xa....

2ND DAY...

>she's still w8ting 2 her boyfrend..
mg pa2ring s fone tp0s ba2..
she told herself...
"mahal pa kya nya ako?!"
"he know nmn pg ng pa2ring akoh...
she's expcting that
d b0y will call her bck...
>untill its evening no one comes,
no one calls...
her CP still off..

3RD DAY

>nasa lobby ng bhay...
she's still w8ting; ng pa2ring


after a few hours, d fone rung...
she ans it quickly...
"hello"

>on d 2nd line..
"honey...ilove u very much..
>biglang ng busy..
>glit n glit na umupo sa s0fa..
at nano0d ng t.v...
>after a few mins...
my kumatok...
she stnd quickly...nd open d do0r...
she was surprised when she saw her bf
stnding on d do0r...
> w/ go0d look...
> white long sleeves... nd
> white pants... [BLOOMING]
d guy said to her...

"come w/ me... yaAn moh
kng bumawi sau"

>she ans...
"w8 ill juz....."
"come lets go...(--------------)"


>after a few mins. they arrived on d plce...
sa houz ng guy...
knabahan xa....
she's asking....
"wat happen...
bat ang dming tao...at my
red light....
wats that...?!
(she stop 4 a while)
"ur mom"

>wlng sg0t..d guy 0nly
lo0ked at her face...
>bglng may 2mawag s knya...
She was shock when she saw d guy's mom
crying and embraced her...
"c0me w/ me!

>sa buong pg aaklng mnksunod
sa knya
ang guy....
on d do0r....she was shocked when
she saw a dead person infr0nt
of her.....
she lo0ked at her back...
but d guy was g0ne.....

>where did it went?? la nmn xang
nkitang dumAan infr0nt of her...
d mother said...
"bat ngaun k lng pumunta
khp0n p koh ng te2xt sau!
per0 nk-off ang phone moh...

she open her CP nd sat 4 a while...
nd read d msg...
there are 5 unread msgs...

>she open d 1st msg..
"trishia, my s0n is now 50/50
c0me here he neede u...

>2nd msg...
"pls c0me hir or reply....i need it now..."

>3rd msg...
"my s0n is on comatose....
can u visit him now
your his strength"...

>4th msg...
"hija my s0n is dead"
and then she cried nd think knowing..
that her love is now gone in her lyf...

>naicp nya ung ngyri.....
she's with d guy
on the past few hours....
but she think,
nd think, nd think...
hanggang dumting
ang knyng pag iicp
sa guy....

"c0me lets go"....
"dalawin moh nmn ako..
khit sa huling araw ng lamay koh...!

Sometimes you think you only want
closure from an old flame. But then you
see the fire still burns like a birthday
candle that reignited when you turned
your back on it. For a moment you
fooled yourself into believing the
feelings were dead, but with the passing
of time you matured and your
perception of the world changed. You
stop thinking you don't want to be the
first to acknowledge the connection that
was and still is, for fear of losing your
pride. No. All you know now is that life is
way too short for you to not love the
people who matter most to you, and let
them know it as well. At least I view the
world through those eyes now, and I
want to tell you, in case today is my last
on Earth, that I do care about you and
always will. As long as I live, you can
count on me…for friendship,
companionship, someone to talk to, and
whatever else comes up when life
throws either of us a curveball. As long
as there is life, it is never too late.

LOVE!!!
Do not be afraid to love. If it hurts, love more. If it still hurts, love some more. Love 'til it hurts no more. Before saying the words I'll love you forever, first ask yourself if you are ready because most of us are ready to face love but not everyone is ready to face forever. Sometimes a heart can not afford to be just friends. Look not for beauty or whiteness of skin but look for the heart that is loyal within. Beauty may fade and skin grows old but the heart that is loyal will never grow cold. Kindness in words creates confidence, kindness in thinking creates profoundness, kindness in giving creates love. Some people never say the words "I love you," it's not their style to be so bold. Some people never say the words "I love you,” but like a child are longing to be told. The most important thing in a relationship between a man and a woman is that one of them be good at taking orders. How come we don't always know when love begins, but we always know when it ends. Love is that feeling you get when you run across a field, full of raving wolves, you know that feeling you have when you get arrested for the 1st time. Sometimes love can be yours when you want it. Sometimes you don't want it when it comes. But when the time comes you want it and it is there for you to keep, I hope you won't let go. It is a shame when one realizes love is worth when it is too late. So, why don't you stop and think for a while if you have set aside a love you cannot live without cause it might not be there the next time you look.
Ironies of love:
It is hard to find, but easy to lose; makes you feel good, but hurts you so bad; open your eyes, but makes you blind; fills up your heart then tears it apart. Never say Forever cause I know it isn't real. It isn't something lasting; it’s what you think you feel. If you mean forever, just tell me you'll try, but never say forever cause forever makes me cry. The gauge of how much you truly treasure something or someone is not how happy you are with them, but how sad you are when you lose them. Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself by putting it back together, or worse, have nothing strong to bind it with. In love, think things over if you're sure about how you feel. Don't fall too hard, not knowing where you stand cause it will hurt real bad if things don't go the way you want them to be. Why say "Hi", if you can say "Hello"? Why say "Let's go out", if you mean "I want to be with you"? Why say "Stay", if you can say "Be with me" Why say "I care" when your heart says, "I love you"? Sometimes we take for granted those we love thinking they will always be around. But time will come when they will give up and you have no chance but to let go Heartbreaks could last as long as you let, it would tear us deep as you allow it to, but the test is not how soon you forget but how you were able to heal and at the same time learn. Love is not an obligation. It need not have any expectations. Love is just beyond words. It is just felt within. Not ifs, no buts, but just because, Sometimes it's the things that aren't said that mean the most. Love is not an everything, but there is no everything without love.” Sometimes we think that loving someone can be such a risk .... How else would we win if we don't take the chance? >You don't lose by loving ... you lose by holding back!" "If I could give you a gift... I would give you the ability to see urself as I see you...So, you would know how very special you are!"

Anyone who has gone through the agony of losing someone he/she loves so much will still wish against all odds to have that love back again. But sometimes a love lost is a love gone forever. No amount of hope can bring back to life a relationship that just died a natural death. Set yourself free, let your heart spread its wings and flies. Remember, it may rain for 40 days and 40 nights, but still it will not rain forever. One day the pouring will stop and there will be plenty of branches where you can find rest. One of these is where you will build your nest and start over again. It's never too late. you may find love and lose it but, WHEN LOVE DIES YOU NEVER DIE WITH IT. You cannot be a redeemer all your life. The best way to weigh a relationship is through the test of fire. You cannot be a sober with your mistake forever. We all fall and make wrong decisions but our blunders are not meant to bury us deep in misery but to teach us the valued lessons of life. Loving is always a learning process.. With love we learn how to CARE AND SACRIFICE. we learn to SHARE AND REACH OUT. We learn to be UNSELFISH AND GIVE MORE THAN WE CAN. Then, when everything doesn't end well, we learn how it feels like to fall and get hurt.
But learning doesn't have to end there. After our fall, we strive to get back on our feet and move on. This is where we learn that LIFE DOESN'T END WHERE OUR HEARTACHES BEGIN. THERES NO FUTURE FOR RELATIONSHIP OF LIES AND SELFISHNESS. Its true, there is life in love. But, there can still be life even after losing love if you leave the past behind and let your heart heal and give you the chance to find yourself again. The success of a relationship lies not only in the beauty of its beginning but in its consistency. Make a choice not on impulse but a decision based on a healthy balance of mind and heart. Let us always remember that...HAPPINESS IS NOT A MATTER OF DESTINY BUT A MATTER OF CHOICE. There comes a time in our lives when we chance
upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and
actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. YOU DON'T HAVE TO FORGET SOMEONE YOU LOVE, WHAT YOU NEED TO LEARN IS HOW TO ACCEPT THE VERDICT OF REALITY WITHOUT BEING BITTER OR SORRY FOR YOURSELF. YOU WOULD BE BETTER OFF GIVING THAT DEDICATION AND LOVE TO SOMEONE MORE DESERVING.

Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. IF YOU LOSE LOVE, IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE FAILED IN LOVE. CRY IF YOU HAVE TO BUT MAKE SURE THAT TEARS WASH AWAY THE HURT AND THE BITTERNESS THAT THE PAST LEFT YOU WITH. LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND LOVE WILL FIND ITS WAY BACK TO YOU. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime. A woman on the rebound could easily fall for sweeping emotions and be made to falsely believe that she finally stumbled upon the right man. When what she just found is only someone to cover up for the love she lost. A man who makes a promise with words and not with actions may never live up to fulfill them.

ITS TRUE THAT LOVE CAN WAIT FOREVER BUT IT IS CRAZY TO STUBBORNLY HOPE FOR SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T EVEN CARE OR UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL. Love makes us see the things through rose-colored glasses. Most of the time, we fail to recognize the danger sign that light up along our way. This feeling you have nurtured for so long isn't healthy anymore. You must realize that you have to let go now before it consumes you and your sanity. There is always a time to think and stop. A time to be sensible and not to allow our hearts to rule over our heads. YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY NOT IN THE ARMS OF A MAN WHO KEEPS YOU WAITING BUT IN THE ARMS OF SOMEONE WHO WILL TAKE YOU NOW AND LOVE YOU FOREVER. If loving a person who is attached to someone else is a crime, then, maybe, many of us would have been jailed long before we realize what its consequences could have been. Loving someone is never a sin. it’s what people do out of love that sometimes makes it all wrong. The selfish desire to want that person is what makes it a sin. DON'T THINK ONLY OF YOUR FEELINGS FOR REAL LOVE DOESN'T HAVE A PLACE FOR SELFISH PEOPLE. When there is love, there is always sacrifices. When we love someone, we never easily give up on that person. Even if we get hurt badly we always try to find a way to ease the pain and learn to understand and forgive. Loving too much doesn't hurt. it is when we expect this love to be reciprocated that we begin to seek approval and acceptance of the things we have done and when we are taken for granted and rejected, we curse the very same love that we once freely and happily offered. DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO NEVER REALLY CARED ABOUT HOW YOU WOULD HAVE FELT. OPEN YOUR HEART AGAIN AND GIVE YOURSELF THE CHANCE TO FIND THE MAN WHO WOULD MAKE LOVING WORTH THE PAIN AND THE SACRIFICE. Just like anything else, our love grows weak and dies, if not taken cared of. It can keep up with pain only to a certain extent. Beyond that, it withers without any hope of recovery and soon dies. GOD WAKES US IN THE MIDST OF A STORM TO TEACH US A LESSON. HE TAKES AWAY PEOPLE WE LOVE SO WE CAN LEARN TO VALUE LOVE ITSELF. HE MAKES US CRY SO HARD SO WE CAN SEE CLEARLY WHEN WE OPEN OUR EYES. HE MAKES US BITTER SO WE CAN REALIZE THAT THERE IS NO GENUINE HAPPINESS IF WE THINK ONLY OF OUR OWN NEEDS AND NOT OF OTHERS.

Relationships built on jealousy and selfishness are doomed from the very beginning. The hardest part of losing love is letting go and moving on. Most of us cry endlessly over things that could have been but never will be. God allows us to experience pain to make us stronger and better persons. He will see us through the most trying and difficult times in our lives and only if we put our trust in Him can we learn to find joy in our tears and happiness in our sorrows. In many failed relationships, separation comes as the inevitable choice but moving on always proves to be twice as difficult as letting go. Sometimes, our choice to hold on is beyond the control of circumstances. Letting go is a decision that can never be dictated on us.
It is resolution we make to ourselves. Acceptance is the key to a new beginning and time is the healer of all wounds. Even if the storm casts its fearful shadow, there will always be light after our darkness and loneliest moments. There is always a hope for those who believe. There is always a chance for those who try.

LOSING SOMEONE WE LOVE MAY NOT BE A LOSS AT ALL BUT A BLESSING BECAUSE SOMEONE EVEN MORE DESERVING IS YET TO COME. There is nothing wrong in expressing our feelings to someone we love, but WE MUST ALWAYS BE SENSITIVE TO THE SIGNALS THAT TELL US WHEN TO RATIONALIZE AND BE SENSIBLE. There comes a time in our lives when we would fall for someone who wouldn't be as interested as we are because his attention is focused on someone else. There are many times when we love but don't get love in return. THERE ARE TIMES WHEN THE SIGN AHEAD SAYS STOP BUT WE STILL STUBBORNLY HEAD ON. We would say our love is unconditional. but of it really is, then we should never feel bad. But why do we get frustrated when love turns sour? Because we still subconsciously seek acceptance and assurance from the people we care about. BEING IN LOVE CAN BE THE MOST WONDERFUL THING WE COULD EXPERIENCE BUT IF THE FEELING BEGINS TO CONSUME OUR WHOLE BEINGS, THEN WE HAVE TO STOP AND LET OUR MINDS AND NOT OUR HEARTS DICTATE OUR ACTIONS. ONLY WHEN WE LEARN TO ACCEPT OUR FATE AND UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF OUR FAILURES CAN WE TRULY GO ON WITH LIFE. WITHOUT HAVING TO LOOK BACK AND CRY OVER THE THINGS THAT COULD HAVE BEEN BUT WILL NEVER BE...
When I lost you, I was the one who loved you most, but between us you lost more... for someday I can love someone the way that I loved you... but you will never be loved again the way that I did."